Break Ups are Awesome

Be 100 times better than any Man your ex can find. 

Look at the photo. How can you say I did not come out on top. Wanna know why my last break up was the best thing to ever happen to me? It because I dug into the pain and found the man inside of myself. Would you believe me if I can solve your problem in one sentence? Without typing up a whole bunch of bullshit I will just tell you.

"Become the man that no woman in her right mind would ever leave." 

Develop your : Power, dominance, intelligence, body, aspirations, talents, skills, and create positive energy from inside your heart. Influence people. Inspire people. 

Follow my Instagram. Today I just hit 400 followers. Im so happy because I worked hard for it. I am happily married to my beautiful blonde blue eyed wife. She's so supportive and loves every fucking thing I create. Spend your time creating something, an empire, a business, a community, etc. 

Don't waste your time filling time up with bullshit like TV, going out drinking. Don't feel like you have to maintain a social life with bullshit people. If they don't inspire you fuck em. Don't fucking talk to them unless they are texting you for advice. Be an advice giver and that is achieved through accumulating wisdom. If people need you that is because you're fucking awesome. 

Relationships start off because you have something the other person wants. Always build on what you have, what you are, and what you can offer. If you have no talents then fucking find one. If you're out of shape then you'd better spend your newly dished time in the gym 2 hours a day, 6 days a week. Don't fucking call your friends to vent. Become good at using that hurt for something amazing. Don't waste it bitching. 

I just read the last paragraph to my wife. She said she saw a guy who has dreams and a man who is pursuing it. And we got a long because we both love Star Wars and Lord of the Rings. 

I tell all my friends who are going a break to stop bitching and enjoy this new found pain. The pain is an indication that your life contains some aspects that you don't have control of. Most things you can control. Grieving is different you can't control that. You're in a break up not grieving, your ex partner is out there alive sucking all kinds of dicks like a cloud chaser trying to find the right flavor in a vape shop. 

Anyways I'll tell you my story. Reading success break up stories were gold to me when I found them. It just sucks that are few stories to find. The relationship that changed me was the one I had with Kayla. 

We started out as friends in college and met in our first class. We were connected just like that. She was blonde, from Minnesota, cute, beautiful eyes, and short tight body. A couple years later I became single and she left her guy for me. I felt lucky but shit went south real fast lots of times. She cheated on me during the first month of our relationship. I was a little bitch and stayed. I cheated too to make it even and I felt great. Maybe it was because I took a little bit of control and did what I wanted. I took two steps back and became a beta male worrying for the next 5 years if we were going to break up again. We broke up many times. Let me rephrase that, Kayla dumped me many times. 

She was my whole world, blah blah. My confidence was all invested in her instead of myself. She dumped me for the last time and she ghosted me. Disappeared. Later I found out she went back to the guy she dated before me and moved to California. 

I was fat, unfit, weak, and broken. What now? There was no more manipulation to perform from all the break up artist programs I bought from the internet. There was no more chance of getting back together and that hurt so much. One day I heard the phrase, "Alpha as Fuck." Mike Rashid, a fitness icon, preached that. What did that mean? I looked up everything on how to be an alpha male. That lead to success seminars, positive vibe books, taking control of your life stuff, and how to be more of a man. All this research kept me super busy. I became good at distracting myself. I am better at it now and struggle to find time to veg out. 

One big thing that helped me develop more into a man was the testosterone injections. Yes steroids. Now there are a lot of negative views on steroids because it is viewed as a nasty drug that will make you into the hulk. No way. Its just a hormone. Having an above normal testosterone level had so many benefits for me. I was injecting testosterone ethanate. My sleep was deep and I woke up full of energy. My focus was sharp all the time. I had better control of my emotions. I couldn't be distracted by pain. I felt low at times but it so much easier to turn that energy into motivation in the gym. The injections just made it easier to feel like a man. The overall well being of myself and my body's chemistry was unmatched. I suggest going to your local TRT(testosterone replacement therapy center) to get your levels check. Most likely you'll get testosterone cypionate injected once a week at 250mg doses which is low. Bodybuilders who are huge usually do the same doses but actually build muscle with more powerful hormones like trenbolone, anavar, equipoise, andadrol, human growth hormones, insulin, igf peptides, and other powerful drugs. Testosterone is just a base. You're not going to blow up in muscles. Your bones will strengthen and you'll be more horny. The big hormones I mentioned earlier are like turbo charges or supercharges for your engine. See reading this blog and you know more about steroids than people who actually use them. 

I was in so much better shape, made good money at my job, made lots of new friends, picked up a lot of hobbies, read a lot of books, learned the names of great inspirational people within my interests. I've even met my wife. She was single and I was single at the right time. She saw the image of a man I created with my bear hands. I created this man. I turned shit into gold. I became the man she said yes to when I asked her to marry me. She never broke up with me, she never dumped me, she never left the house when we argued. She is my best friend and my biggest fan. I have everything I want and my life is exactly how I want it to be. I have a spacey apartment in a beautiful neighborhood with wood floors. My Mac book pro, my Sony camera, my iPad, iPhone, dog, my wife, my dog, and pet rabbit.