Key to Happiness

I am going to sum up what I believe to be the key to happiness.

"Succeed & Inspire"

Who are you? That is the question that most people find uncomfortable to answer. How well do we know our subconscious? I didn't want to dissect my subconscious. I wanted to create it. I wanted to take what was already there and remodel it to my liking.

I wanted to be more smart, more wise, more fit, more inspiring, and quicker with decision making.

We all want the answers. So I want to cut to the chase. Say these things to quickly empower your mind.

My body is so strong.
My mind is incredibly sharp.
My spirit is magnificient.
My creativity is limitless and boundless.
I will out preform those around me.
My movements will be concise and perfect.
My sentences will be short and to the point.
I will lead with action and results.
I have control of this shit.
I am going to fuck this day in the ass.
Succeed and Inspire
Succeed and Inspire
Succeed and Inspire

It's so important to live in the moment. It's easy. To experience the moment focus as hard as you can to the sound of your heart beat. That is the rhythm of life. Follow that rhythm and breathe. When you're calm in hectic situations that means you have control.

New Years: How To Get Fit

Right now I am listening to Jana Kramer on Pandora.

The New Years is upon to get fit and get into shape. Many of us will start and stop. I've done it for so many years as the fat kid in High School. I sign up for gyms and stop. I sign up again go for 2 days and then stop. If you sign a contract you're going to get so many calls from the gym people. If you have deep pockets you might keep paying for years without going. That sucks dick.

Tip: Sign up for gym that has no contract. It's easy to stop if you have to stop without legal action or screwing up your credit.

We need to stay motivated to keep going to the gym. GOING TO THE GYM. That brings me to another tip that has worked for me when I started this fitness journey. I remember working full days at work and most days I did not want to workout. I went anyways. Even if I did not work out I touched the wall in the locker room and left. I made it a habit of just "going." After 3 months of this it became habit to walk through those gym doors. Seriously some days I did not work out, I took a shower and went home. Or I sat in the hot tub or steam room and left.

I always brought my gym attire to work with me in my bag. Every morning I packed that shit. Or lay it out in my room before I went to bed the night before. H&M always has the best long sleeve shirts. I fit a large but like to wear baggy shirts. I have 4 or 5 outfits to choose from for the gym. If you have one set of workout clothes, you'll change your mind about working out if you forgot to wash.

What if you look awful and don't want to be judged? There are gym rules ofcourse and many ways to be "don't be that guy in the gym."

-Don't scream if you have no muscles.
-Don't wear tapout logo stuff. ( Just don't wear anything with logos. That's super safe.)
-Don't wear tank tops if you're a guy without arms or love handles.
-Don't wear lifting gloves unless you're jacked. There are many alternatives to lifting gloves.
-Don't do advanced workouts: Stick with benching and machine presses for chest. Keep your workouts simple. Look Up the best of the best on youtube for lifting advice. Ex: Jay Cutler, Kai Greene, Dorian Yates, Flex Wheeler, Kevin Levrone, Ronnie Coleman, etc. The best of the best.
-Smell good
-Wear sweat pants because guys always judge your calves. I like my sweat pants from Walmart. I love my joggers from UNIQLO.
-Don't be checking out chicks
-Don't give advice to people
-Earn respect by asking the big guys in the gym for advice: "Am I doing this exercise correctly?"
They will take you under their wing and you'll make friends. That's why I love the gym, to see my friends.

If you don't ask for advice you'll stay looking the same. For men and women we want that upside christmas tree look. That V taper. Every day hit side delt raises. Burn them slightly. If you have no arms maybe pump blood into them every day too. Wide grip pull ups is a must for lat work. Don't go hard as muthafucker, just work them till they burn. Almost like a warm up. Don't waste your time with the advice stuff. The basics are very important.

It is very important to have drive a chip on your shoulder. People respect you when you make progress. It's much easier to have people understand what you do when you show them with your body and actions. I can't imagine telling someone I'm lifting weights if I am not growing. I have no genetics for the best body but I want to show them I can attain it because I am not giving up. I want it to be hard because normal people will not be able to attain it. If I am not meant to look a certain way I'll push harder. I feel fantastic and happy when I see results in the mirror.

Tip: Don't waste your money on fat burners and all kinds of funky supplements or cleanses. CREATINE, PROTEIN WHEY, BCAA(high in lucine) and maybe a PREWORKOUT is all you need.

Tip: Carbs keep around your workouts only. Before and After. The rest of the day you can eat a little but very little like half and apple or banana or two crackers to keep from passing out. When you really feel like crap that's a good time to ingest a giant portion of carbs. That's pretty much CARB CYCLING. That works great if you have a belly or love handles. If you're skinny, eat more carbs and protein.

I started my journey 4 years ago. I haven't looked back. I still want a more perfect body and I will get there. 

Tren Cough

Trenbolone acetate has been a miracle drug for me and helped me make some great gains. I did learn that my gains are not as fast as I imagined because my diet is not on point and rest has not been adequate enough. I did experience the worst "tren cough," I've ever experienced. Two nights ago I felt a sharp pain when I pushed the needle in. I did not aspirate and I'm pretty sure I nicked a vein. When I finished injecting the whole syringe I felt the strong urge to cough. Then 30 seconds later I coughed again. Another 30 seconds went by and I couldn't breathe. I yelled for help and my wife came into the room and didn't know what to do and I could not speak. I just grabbed her and she rubbed my back. She knew about tren cough because she saw me go through mild episodes.

Two minutes later I was okay and could breathe right again. I focused on taking short breathes during the agony. It felt like I was being choked by Darth Vader. My lungs felt tight and squeezed. Also I felt like there was a giant boulder on my chest.

I can't wait to finish my last bottle of tren ace. The other night I yelled at the Wendy's drive through worker because he had an attitude and you can tell he hated his job. Also I had no problem being honest with my friends. I am firm believer that you have to control your life and not let shit happen to you. I let him know that his girls left him because he was a little bitch and complain too much. I rather set the standard and not become a follower of losers. If you ain't working hard and I can't learn anything from you, I don't want you around.

On the brighter side and most important note: I've been making progress. My diet has been clean and the followers on my Instagram: @creatingwong have been so supportive and cool. They make me want to push harder because my work motivates people in a way. That feels so amazing. I love answering my direct messages and emails every morning. I've dropped my carbs as low as I could to see how much energy I could manage. It has been hard to stay motivated to lift on my third day of low carbs. I ingested carbs pre and post workout. My refeed last night was fantastic and my energy was back to normal. Today I've been eating low carb. Tomorrow I might start feeling it. But the body will adapt and my low carb days will have to be longer later. Here are my progress pics.

My training partner is holding my new lightsaber I bought at Target on sale. The Luke Skywalker FX light saber is so beautiful and well made. The best $Hundred something I've ever spent. 

The before picture is my most favorite photo in the whole entire world of myself. It's me and where I started.

As my waist starts to disappear my back looks bigger. It's an illusion. 

My new bottles of test cypionate came in the mail today. It's time to switch from test Ethanate to Test C. Gotta switch compounds every couple months. 

This was day one of my low carb attack. I am still puffy but strong.

MY MEALS Lately: Ofcourse they could be cleaner with less fat but it's what I could manage this week. I gotta push harder to eat more and more cleaner. Eating for taste is very addictive and I'm slowly training myself to get over the taste and worry more about nutrients and eating for results. I pack my breakfast and eat it at Starbucks with my iced green tea. I have so many teas from San Francisco. That has helped me a lot with drinking water. I have a new hot water dispenser on my kitchen counter and my new teapot came in the mail today. 

3CC steroids

Today I injected a full 3CC syringe. 1 cc (250 mg) of testosterone Ethanate and 2cc (200mg) of trenbolone acetate. My left cheek is feeling pretty sore but manageable. I weighed in st 204lbs. Last night I weighed in at 206 lbs.

I see the fat coming off my chest and shoulders.

Buying Steroids

Training was so friggin awesome this morning. My bench was strong. I used to struggle with 225 for two reps. Now it's no problem completing 12 slow controlled reps. I felt like the energizer bunny, I kept going and going. The cardio suffered today, I was huffing and puffing for air.

Tomorrow I am starting to up my testosterone to 500mg of testosterone ethanate. It came in the mail today and I was so excited. Look at the photos of how it was shipped. Seriously I am taken very good care of. My supplier cares about my progress and gives way better prices than any other brands that I have used. To be honest I feel like all the products I have purchased before have been under dosed or bunk.

Actually I am going to take a picture of all my empty vials. 

I apologize for my table. It has paint, lots of sharpies, but it's my favorite spot to work in the whole apartment.

In the picture below I have SP from Ashop.in which worked pretty well but 3 weeks to get here.

GTEX and Wellness Fitness was weak. The Masteron was garbage, talk about dirty shit. The pain from the injections was so bad. I got a fever every time I injected. I still have a whole bottle full. People told me to sell it someone I don't like but I can't do that to someone. I will post a video on my Instagram smashing the full vial of the shit masteron. The pain was real. The whole website WFN Pharma is odd. The athletes they say they sponsor probably have never heard of them. I became interested to WFN  by Marc Lobliner. The delivery was fast and they take card.

The Vial with the bird on it was a German Brand I purchased from a friend of a friend. I bought one Test E and 1 Tren Ace. Whopping $140 each, he probably got it for $80. That stuff worked fast. I got messed up dreams and my strength went up super fast. The foggy mind set in real fast and I got tren cough twice (I injected too fast both times.) Tyenol fixed the high blood pressure feeling.

The next brand is Pharmacom. Their stuff is legit. That's all I have to say but pricey and delivery takes a long time.

All these vials have been from the past year. Shit I should have made more gains. However I have learned a lot. Buying from online sources can be tricky. A steroid testing kit would be a good investment for me in the future.

So far in the first week I have seen major changes to my body from The LWP brand.

The pump was great and my midsection is tightening up. That's with a low dose of test and a big dose of tren. Trenbolone is a wonderful miracle drug.

My body is my experiment. This blog is a journey of a normal guy doing some pretty crazy shit. I am so sure there are others that run more shit.

Just to repeat myself the reason why I am blogging is to put all in one place what it takes. I want to showcase the brands of test. I want to give a true testimony to steroid usage. I used to be against it because I thought it was cheating. It's not really, it takes a lot more hard work to make them work. I guess the extra male energy makes it easier to work hard. It take patience and the willing to sacrifice more time in the gym and more time to study/research.

Buying them is a bitch. Buying online is a bitch too.  I don't advise you go out and buy underground stuff. Go see your doctor if you have health insurance or a shitload of cocaine money. The pharmacy shit is the best. $110 a bottle is worth it. I can't afford to go see a doctor so the underground stuff would have to do. Eroids was a great place to find sources. I love Pharmacom Basicstero. Western union or Bitcoin to pay. If you want sources you have to expect some to steal your money or expect hiccups because it is illegal. I am lucky, I have received. Oh before I forget I did buy 3 vials of shit from a dude that works at PLANET FITNESS for $200 total. I got my stuff, looked at the shitty looking vials with handwritten labels, and trashed them.

I got prices for HGH. I can't wait to use hgh to further my muscle development and fatloss.

-HGH 100 iu somatropin pharma grade: $310
-Norditropin pens are 30iu 10mg: $220

Trenbolone 200mg

Thank you to all my followers. Follow my Instagram where I post pictures of everything. @creatingwong

Today I injected 175 mg of Test Ethanate and 200mg of Trenbolone Acetate.

I started using a new brand from Live Well Pharma LWP.

I had a slight pip from the tren from two days ago. There was no pip in my right cheek yet. Maybe tomorrow. This brand feels stronger. My blood pressure felt kind of high today and my focus becomes off. Almost like a foggy state of mind. This is easily fixed with Tylenol. The dreams have been so freakily vivid and crazy. I feel more violent in my dreams. Last week I flipped out several times over small things. I am a painter creatingwong.com and I trashed a lot of my artwork with a razorblade. I screamed at the top of my lungs and threw glass vases against the wall. There were a lot of glass on the floor and the clean up took 2 hours. The anger thing is real. Just on tren do I feel like murdering people.

My body feels like it's changing daily.

While I was at work I posted my picture in the comment section of a fantastic person I follow on Facebook. Danny_getsfit

His profile and journey is amazing. He inspires me. I posted my before and after picture and my messenger has been blowing up with people who are just starting out training. They asked me about my diet and training. Honestly I am still trying to clean up my diet but I stressed the importance of a clean diet. Less process foods. For me I seem to absorb rice and meat really well. I let them know that I work out for 2 hours 6 days a week and love the gym so very much. It's my hobby and lifestyle. I am also up front about my steroid cycle too. I let them know what I am running so they don't go expecting super fast results. I am still learning and my transformation has taken me 4 years. Just in the past year I've seen some significant gains since I hopped on test. My dosages has always been really low. The past two months I have gone a little into the deep end with fuller syringes.

Starting with my next injection I am bumping up my test to 500 mg a week. That means a full 3cc on some days. I am very excited to see what happens. I hate reading forums because there are guys who have tried everything without any real documentation. I feel that the more honest I am and post more about what it takes online I get a great response from people who enjoy the same type of hobby. It's fantastic when strangers reach out. Except kids. They shouldn't touch the stuff. Teenagers are so interested in it already. I just tell them the horror stories about nicking a vein and blood running down your leg. The post injection pain from dirty shit is real too. Not being able to tie your shoes or put on your socks is a bitch. If you had a fucking truck to climb in and out of..... you're fucked too.

Follow my blog. I don't want to make up experiences or facts. I want to keep it real and share my journey with everyone. Again it's because forums suck and it's so hard to find youtube personalities with real answers. I don't make a lot of money but I budget for my steroids because having that testosterone in your body makes me feel like a million bucks. Steroids saved me and brought me out of my "bitch-ass-whiney" shell.

LWP Pharma 

Break Ups are Awesome

Be 100 times better than any Man your ex can find. 

Look at the photo. How can you say I did not come out on top. Wanna know why my last break up was the best thing to ever happen to me? It because I dug into the pain and found the man inside of myself. Would you believe me if I can solve your problem in one sentence? Without typing up a whole bunch of bullshit I will just tell you.

"Become the man that no woman in her right mind would ever leave." 

Develop your : Power, dominance, intelligence, body, aspirations, talents, skills, and create positive energy from inside your heart. Influence people. Inspire people. 

Follow my Instagram. Today I just hit 400 followers. Im so happy because I worked hard for it. I am happily married to my beautiful blonde blue eyed wife. She's so supportive and loves every fucking thing I create. Spend your time creating something, an empire, a business, a community, etc. 

Don't waste your time filling time up with bullshit like TV, going out drinking. Don't feel like you have to maintain a social life with bullshit people. If they don't inspire you fuck em. Don't fucking talk to them unless they are texting you for advice. Be an advice giver and that is achieved through accumulating wisdom. If people need you that is because you're fucking awesome. 

Relationships start off because you have something the other person wants. Always build on what you have, what you are, and what you can offer. If you have no talents then fucking find one. If you're out of shape then you'd better spend your newly dished time in the gym 2 hours a day, 6 days a week. Don't fucking call your friends to vent. Become good at using that hurt for something amazing. Don't waste it bitching. 

I just read the last paragraph to my wife. She said she saw a guy who has dreams and a man who is pursuing it. And we got a long because we both love Star Wars and Lord of the Rings. 

I tell all my friends who are going a break to stop bitching and enjoy this new found pain. The pain is an indication that your life contains some aspects that you don't have control of. Most things you can control. Grieving is different you can't control that. You're in a break up not grieving, your ex partner is out there alive sucking all kinds of dicks like a cloud chaser trying to find the right flavor in a vape shop. 

Anyways I'll tell you my story. Reading success break up stories were gold to me when I found them. It just sucks that are few stories to find. The relationship that changed me was the one I had with Kayla. 

We started out as friends in college and met in our first class. We were connected just like that. She was blonde, from Minnesota, cute, beautiful eyes, and short tight body. A couple years later I became single and she left her guy for me. I felt lucky but shit went south real fast lots of times. She cheated on me during the first month of our relationship. I was a little bitch and stayed. I cheated too to make it even and I felt great. Maybe it was because I took a little bit of control and did what I wanted. I took two steps back and became a beta male worrying for the next 5 years if we were going to break up again. We broke up many times. Let me rephrase that, Kayla dumped me many times. 

She was my whole world, blah blah. My confidence was all invested in her instead of myself. She dumped me for the last time and she ghosted me. Disappeared. Later I found out she went back to the guy she dated before me and moved to California. 

I was fat, unfit, weak, and broken. What now? There was no more manipulation to perform from all the break up artist programs I bought from the internet. There was no more chance of getting back together and that hurt so much. One day I heard the phrase, "Alpha as Fuck." Mike Rashid, a fitness icon, preached that. What did that mean? I looked up everything on how to be an alpha male. That lead to success seminars, positive vibe books, taking control of your life stuff, and how to be more of a man. All this research kept me super busy. I became good at distracting myself. I am better at it now and struggle to find time to veg out. 

One big thing that helped me develop more into a man was the testosterone injections. Yes steroids. Now there are a lot of negative views on steroids because it is viewed as a nasty drug that will make you into the hulk. No way. Its just a hormone. Having an above normal testosterone level had so many benefits for me. I was injecting testosterone ethanate. My sleep was deep and I woke up full of energy. My focus was sharp all the time. I had better control of my emotions. I couldn't be distracted by pain. I felt low at times but it so much easier to turn that energy into motivation in the gym. The injections just made it easier to feel like a man. The overall well being of myself and my body's chemistry was unmatched. I suggest going to your local TRT(testosterone replacement therapy center) to get your levels check. Most likely you'll get testosterone cypionate injected once a week at 250mg doses which is low. Bodybuilders who are huge usually do the same doses but actually build muscle with more powerful hormones like trenbolone, anavar, equipoise, andadrol, human growth hormones, insulin, igf peptides, and other powerful drugs. Testosterone is just a base. You're not going to blow up in muscles. Your bones will strengthen and you'll be more horny. The big hormones I mentioned earlier are like turbo charges or supercharges for your engine. See reading this blog and you know more about steroids than people who actually use them. 

I was in so much better shape, made good money at my job, made lots of new friends, picked up a lot of hobbies, read a lot of books, learned the names of great inspirational people within my interests. I've even met my wife. She was single and I was single at the right time. She saw the image of a man I created with my bear hands. I created this man. I turned shit into gold. I became the man she said yes to when I asked her to marry me. She never broke up with me, she never dumped me, she never left the house when we argued. She is my best friend and my biggest fan. I have everything I want and my life is exactly how I want it to be. I have a spacey apartment in a beautiful neighborhood with wood floors. My Mac book pro, my Sony camera, my iPad, iPhone, dog, my wife, my dog, and pet rabbit.